One day, I'll find them.
Someone who loves me, because I am me.
Someone I'll love, because he is him
The"someone just for me". ♥
Someone who loves me, because I am me.
Someone I'll love, because he is him
The"someone just for me". ♥
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Twinkle of the Stars, Little Stars, Shining Stars
Writings by yours truly. ^_^
30 November 2009 @ 12:06 pm
23 November 2009 @ 12:58 pm
Be careful when you think you've reached the end of the tunnel, because it's then that you realize you're even further behind than when you started.
After a night of which greatly upset me, I have decided that I'm going back to my original plan - - I think that I am going to be single for a while, and at this very moment I feel like that will suffice.
There is a reason why I don't like people, a reason why I avoid them as much as possible and have problems trusting them, and I was just reminded of that reason last night.
I promised myself last winter, that I will never give my time to anyone who doesn't care for me again.
Some people die with their hearts covered in dents but I'm putting my foot down and no one is putting any more dents on my heart this winter.
One of the worst things anyone can do is play me for a fool and think they've got me all figured out, because I'll be the first to let them know that they don't and never will.
So the decision has officially been made.
I don't have time for games or puzzles, and just being friends with someone that I have feelings for but will never have is just a waste of time and pointless IMO.
So as of today, the reigns are getting pulled back.
After a night of which greatly upset me, I have decided that I'm going back to my original plan - - I think that I am going to be single for a while, and at this very moment I feel like that will suffice.
There is a reason why I don't like people, a reason why I avoid them as much as possible and have problems trusting them, and I was just reminded of that reason last night.
I promised myself last winter, that I will never give my time to anyone who doesn't care for me again.
Some people die with their hearts covered in dents but I'm putting my foot down and no one is putting any more dents on my heart this winter.
One of the worst things anyone can do is play me for a fool and think they've got me all figured out, because I'll be the first to let them know that they don't and never will.
So the decision has officially been made.
I don't have time for games or puzzles, and just being friends with someone that I have feelings for but will never have is just a waste of time and pointless IMO.
So as of today, the reigns are getting pulled back.
Current Location: spiralling out of control
Current Mood: 
angry
angryCurrent Music: "Made for You" by One Republic
19 November 2009 @ 01:09 pm
Frozen
I remember those days in the past.
Those days where we were smiling and laughing together.
Holding me close to you as the snow fell lightly all around us.
But now that season has returned.
And I'm waking up from a violent dream on a tear-soaked pillow.
Memories I thought had faded begin swirling all around me....
...It's that same feeling.
I remember those days in the past.
Those days where we were smiling and laughing together.
Holding me close to you as the snow fell lightly all around us.
But now that season has returned.
And I'm waking up from a violent dream on a tear-soaked pillow.
Memories I thought had faded begin swirling all around me....
...It's that same feeling.
I remember that day in the past.
That day where the cold wintery wind nearly froze my heart and cracked it.
I was left alone, abandoned in my own confusion.
But that same emotion is back again.
The feeling of heartache and helplessness.
The same question endlessly repeating in my head...
....it's that same feeling.
I remember just a moment ago.
That moment spent looking at photos of old friends who became lovers.
Watching couples gaze at holiday lights that mimick the irony of former events.
But then I pass a stray kitten on the street.
The most lovable thing yet no one will hold it in their arms.
Left to wander around aimlessly moaning in pain of why...
...it's that same feeling.
And then I remember just yesterday.
You smiled at me as I walked in, soaked in rain.
Saying that I was lovely nonetheless.
Words that touch my heart, even thought they could be empty.
We laugh together, hang out, talk for hours.
We relate and yet we debate, unintentionally letting my gaurd down.
Wanting only you to take my hand and we'll go to a place unknown.
But a darkness is still holding the two of us back...
...it's that same feeling.
That same hope...
That same dream...
That same beginning...
But if that day should come
Where we both reach that same ending
That ending where the wintery winds nearly consumed me alive
..would I be able to survive?
Maybe I'll be prepared this time.
Wearing unused gear from previous winters
Becoming immune to the biting chill as I face the snow storm once again.
But the future is always uncertain.
And this time the harsh elements
Might be just enough to leave me
Frozen.
-Written by Kiana M.
On 11/19/09
(COPYRIGHTED material. DO NOT post ANYWHERE without my permission!!)
Current Location: Surviving the grey winter days
Current Mood: 
melancholy
melancholyCurrent Music: "the weekeND" by Suzuki Ami
17 November 2009 @ 05:07 pm
Goshers. I just realized something today.
I have so many goals that I need, want and HAVE to accomplish...so many, almost like TOO many!!!
In fact, I've compilled a list of such:
♥Financial Goals♥
++Buy Gothic & Lolita bible vol. 1
++Buy new dvd player
++Buy Amuro Namie's new album in December
++Save up for Nintendo DS (pink)
++Save up for Dell Laptop computer (pink)
++Save up for New keyboard (one more similar to the professional kind)
++Save up for Guitar
++Save up for 2 Pullip dolls
++Eventually save for nintendo wii
♥Personal Goals♥
++Strengthen my relationship with God
++Start nail school
++Take driving coarse
++Take creative writing classes
++Take Japanese language coarse
++Take piano lessons (maybe)
++Try the 365 day project
++Look into modeling within my city
++Finish my writings
++Try circle lens!!!
++Try false eyelashes!!!!
++Baking more sweets
++Create my first deco item
++Learn to sew better >.<
++Eventually learn bento creation
So much to do, and not nearly enough time to do it. Grrr! >_<
Ah well. At least I know that I'll be kept busy for a while, and that my life isn't meaningless. ^^
Hmm.....I wonder which pullip doll should I buy first?
I love the ageha one that was released, and she's soo cheap, not to mention only the most beautiful doll I've ever seen.
My oh my, she'll look so glamorous sitting on my pretty white tabletop among the flowers!!
I'm going to take loooads of pictures of her too.
Also, I might be buying the Gothic & Lolita Bible as well.
I'm a bit skeptical of buying it since it's the english version released by Tokyopop. >_<
Annnnd....tokyopop tends to ruin things from what I've heard. lol =p
So I'm hoping my money will not go to waste, but something tells me it probably won't! :3
Also, I'm totally geeked about Amuro Namie's new album coming out on December 16th!! *jumps up and down and squeals like a crazy fangirl.
I've loved the new songs she's released up til now - - "Wild", "Dr.", "My Love" and most recently, "Copy That", which is sheer FIRE.
She's teamed up with Nao'ymt for the first two, which is one of my favorite music producers.
I want to say that "Copy That" is produced by T.kura/Giant Swing, only because It sounds like Michico is singing in the background along with her, lol. =p But I'm not too sure yet....I guess I'll wait and see when it's released! xD
But yeah, that's about all that's going on with me lately. I'm still crushing on someone.
One day the two of us will be like this:
I have so many goals that I need, want and HAVE to accomplish...so many, almost like TOO many!!!
In fact, I've compilled a list of such:
♥Financial Goals♥
++Buy Gothic & Lolita bible vol. 1
++Buy new dvd player
++Buy Amuro Namie's new album in December
++Save up for Nintendo DS (pink)
++Save up for Dell Laptop computer (pink)
++Save up for New keyboard (one more similar to the professional kind)
++Save up for Guitar
++Save up for 2 Pullip dolls
++Eventually save for nintendo wii
♥Personal Goals♥
++Strengthen my relationship with God
++Start nail school
++Take driving coarse
++Take creative writing classes
++Take Japanese language coarse
++Take piano lessons (maybe)
++Try the 365 day project
++Look into modeling within my city
++Finish my writings
++Try circle lens!!!
++Try false eyelashes!!!!
++Baking more sweets
++Create my first deco item
++Learn to sew better >.<
++Eventually learn bento creation
So much to do, and not nearly enough time to do it. Grrr! >_<
Ah well. At least I know that I'll be kept busy for a while, and that my life isn't meaningless. ^^
Hmm.....I wonder which pullip doll should I buy first?
I love the ageha one that was released, and she's soo cheap, not to mention only the most beautiful doll I've ever seen.
My oh my, she'll look so glamorous sitting on my pretty white tabletop among the flowers!!
I'm going to take loooads of pictures of her too.
Also, I might be buying the Gothic & Lolita Bible as well.
I'm a bit skeptical of buying it since it's the english version released by Tokyopop. >_<
Annnnd....tokyopop tends to ruin things from what I've heard. lol =p
So I'm hoping my money will not go to waste, but something tells me it probably won't! :3
Also, I'm totally geeked about Amuro Namie's new album coming out on December 16th!! *jumps up and down and squeals like a crazy fangirl.
I've loved the new songs she's released up til now - - "Wild", "Dr.", "My Love" and most recently, "Copy That", which is sheer FIRE.
She's teamed up with Nao'ymt for the first two, which is one of my favorite music producers.
I want to say that "Copy That" is produced by T.kura/Giant Swing, only because It sounds like Michico is singing in the background along with her, lol. =p But I'm not too sure yet....I guess I'll wait and see when it's released! xD
But yeah, that's about all that's going on with me lately. I'm still crushing on someone.
One day the two of us will be like this:
One day~~ ^_^
Oh, before I go...Namie's new song:
Oh, before I go...Namie's new song:
Comment people, comment!!! :3
BTW....if anyone knows where I can find a really nice and small region free dvd player, PLLLEEEASE, let me know!!! kthanxbai.♥
Current Location: wanting to be in yummy chocolate sweet cookie cream land
Current Mood: 
hungry
hungryCurrent Music: "Twice" By Little Dragon
16 November 2009 @ 05:29 pm
With me being extremely busy with work, trying to go to school and making millions of decisions in just about every area of my life I haven't had time to update my poor poor blog. =[
But now, since I have a much needed day off, I've decided to update with the first entry of the song lyrics!! Hoooray!!!
These are lyrics to the song "Girasole" by one of my most favorite artists ever, Domoto Tsuyoshi. "Girasole" means "Sunflower" in Italian. I love the lyrics to this song so much, as well as the music and how Tsuyoshi-kun sings it with so much energy and strength, as if every word he sings describes his current mood. A truly amazing peice of art from a truly amazing artist! ^_~
My own interpretation: To me, it seems as if this song is about two people who went down a really rocky road at one point during their relationship, and now that they've gotten through all that the significant other seems to have lost her feelings to continue the relationship while the singer (i.e. tsuyoshi, lol) wants to forget about the past and move on. That's my own personal view of it, and that is also something I can relate to myself. *sigh* I always relate to this man's songs. ^_^ 
♥Information♥:
Name: Domoto Tsuyoshi
Also known as: ENDLICHERI ENDLICHERI, 244 Endli-x, 剛 紫
Age: 30
DOB: April 10th, 1979
Birthplace: Nara, Japan
Height: 5'6'' (Supposedly...I personally believe he might be 5'4''.)
Bloodtype: AB
Heritage: Asian (Japanese)
Occupation: Singer, Songwriter, Actor, Artist, Guitarist, Pianist, Dancer, Can draw, loves fishing...he basically does everything LOL
Associated with: Johnny's Entertainment, KinKi Kids, a ton of different tv dramas, Domoto Tsuyoshi no Shoujiki shindoi, Domoto Kyoudai
Official Website: http://tsuyoshi.in
So here is the translation, and the lyrics in their original Japanese language. I hope everyone can enjoy them! ♥
Girasole - 堂本剛 (Domoto Tsuyoshi)
(From the album "Rosso E Azzurro" released in 2002)
(Verse 1)
Avoiding your attacks
An era spent on my knees
A sigh, you
pierce my heart
Bathed in the night wind
Spread your hands
Don't say things like you want to go somewhere
If you notice, it's already the third sunflower
Even the smell of the seasons
(Chorus)
Let's forget about it and embrace each other
from now on
(Verse 2)
Exhausted lungs
A night left hanging
With this kiss
I can become stronger
I won't let society's accepted ideals
do as they like
Only you are allowed to manipulate me
Isn't it wonderful, still the third sunflower
Even the tears of the seasons
(Chorus)
Let's forget about it and embrace each other
from now on
(Guitar Bridge)
If you notice, it's already the third sunflower
Even the smell of the seasons
(Chorus)
Let's forget about it and embrace each other
from now on
Let's forget about it and embrace each other
from now on
Let's forget about it and embrace each other
from now on
Let's forget about it and embrace each other
from now on
Japanese Kanji
肩すかし食らい
ひざまづく时代
溜息あなた様
胸に刺さる
夜风を浴びて
両手を広げ
何処かへ行きたいなんて言わないで
気づけばもう三度目向日葵
季节の匂いも
忘れて抱き合いましょう
この先も
くたびれた肺
ぶらさげたnight
このキッスで
あたし强くなれる
社会通念の
好きにはさせない
操作していいのはあなた様だけ
素敌ねまだ三度目向日葵
季节の涙も
忘れて抱き合いましょう
この先も
気づけばもう三度目向日葵
季节の匂いも
忘れて抱き合いましょう
この先も
忘れて抱き合いましょう
この先も
忘れて抱き合いましょう
この先も
忘れて抱き合いましょう
この先も
(Translation borrowed from http://www.papersnow.net/sessions)
Current Location: In a place where I don't want to be...
Current Mood: 
worried
worriedCurrent Music: "N.G.S." by Asian Kung-fu Generation
29 October 2009 @ 12:59 pm
Ha, with an entry like this one is likely to think that I'm not crushing at all. (But I am..tee hee! =p)
But even still, these quotes are so true so I had to share them.
They go so well with my cynical and misanthrope-ish personality! =]
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I leave before being left. I decide.
But even still, these quotes are so true so I had to share them.
They go so well with my cynical and misanthrope-ish personality! =]
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I leave before being left. I decide.
~ Brigitte Bardot
There are no frigid women,
only clumsy men.
~ Anon
There are no frigid women,
only clumsy men.
~ Anon
Man is the only animal who injures
his mate.
~ Ludovico Ariosto
(However....I read somewhere that female spiders eat the male ones after mating?? That's so gangsta. rofl)
Mother Teresa
Loneliness and the feeling of being unwanted is the most terrible.
Anonymous
No matter how badly your heart is broken, the world does not stop for your grief.
I don't miss him, I miss who I thought he was.
~Anonymous
When you are in love and you get hurt, it’s like a cut... it will heal, but there will always be a scar.
~Anonymous
When I see you smile and know that it is not for me, that is when I will miss you the most.
~Anonymous
It’s better to have never felt the happiness of love than to be tortured by the pain of it ending. -Mike
Love can sometimes be magic. But magic can sometimes... just be an illusion. -Javan
Guys draw a straight line to a girl's heart with a crooked pencil. -Anonymous
... how many ways can one heart be mangled and still be expected to keep beating? -Anonymous
A wise girl kisses but doesn't love, listens but doesn't believe and leaves before she is left." ~Marilyn Monroe
"Yes, there are a lot of fish in the sea, but I think there's a hole in my net." - Anonymous.
"True love is like Santa, you grow up believing in it then find out it just doesn't exist." -Anonymous
" You don't die from a broken heart.. you only wish you did." - Unknown
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The first song of the top 105 song lyrics project will be posted on Sunday. (Because I work today, friday, and a halloween party to attend on saturday) So make sure you check back!! xDD
~Nani-chan♥
Current Location: In mario land, hopping over mushrooms
Current Mood: 
sleepy
sleepyCurrent Music: "Can't Stop" by Red Hot Chili Peppers
25 October 2009 @ 08:07 pm
ええ！！みんなさんこんばんは.
ナーニチャンです. みんな元気かい？
Looks like nani-chan is back with another entry somehow! I don't know how I find the time to do all of these things. I guess I just amaze even myself. ^_~
Anyhoo, after many hours of contemplation and very serious thinking, I've compiled a list of 105 songs of which have lyrics that touch me somehow. Either I can relate to them or have related to them, or they just describe situations I've been through.
One thing I love so much about music is how it touches you in places where it seems as if nothing else can touch you. The majority of these songs have given me chills, left me emotional and maybe even with tears in my eyes after thinking about the lyrics deeply.
So right now, I'm going to post the entire list up here of all 105 songs, and whenever I have a chance I'll post up the lyrics of each song in an entry until I've gone through all 105.
Not only will I post up the lyrics, but also information about the artist, a picture of the artist and links as to where you can listen to the song and/or watch the video. Also, if the song happens to be in another language other than english, I will happily post up the lyrics in it's original language as well as an english translation as well, so that everyone will be able to understand. I'm calling it "THE '105 SONGS WITH LYRICS THAT I ♥!!!! XD' PROJECT OF '09." Simple enough title, I guess! xD
Why am I doing this, you ask? Some people listen to music only because of the melody, but with me being a writer I see so much beauty in the lyrics and composition of a song. It's something that I want to share with others, because then maybe they can see the beauty in it too. ^_^
So here goes, 105 songs with lyrics that I ♥, in no particular order. These songs have been chosen based solely on the lyrics, however I adore the music and the artists singing them as well. (If there is more than one heart symbol by the title, that means I REALLY love the song lyrics. =])
1. GIRASOLE - 堂本剛
2. 濡れ鼠 - ENDLICHERI☆ENDLICHERI ♥
3. Man ~あなたの宇宙に生きていたい~ - ENDLICHERI☆ENDLICHERI ♥♥
4. 心の恋人 - 堂本剛 ♥♥
5. 闇食いwind - ENDLICHERI☆ENDLICHERI
6. 孤独な詩 素敵な詩 - 剛 紫
7. 雨愛詩 - 剛 紫
8. Woman ~あなたの宇宙に生きていたい~ - ENDLICHERI☆ENDLICHERI ♥♥
9. 空が泣くから - ENDLICHERI☆ENDLICHERI ♥♥♥
10. Prisoner of Love - 宇多田ヒカル
11. Breath - 堂本剛 ♥
12. Ordinary - Lena Park
13. Orange - 堂本剛
14. 停電の夜には - KinKi Kids ♥
15. Together When... - 浜崎あゆみ
16. Because of You - 浜崎あゆみ ♥♥
17. Teddy Bear - 浜崎あゆみ ♥
18. Memorial Address - 浜崎あゆみ ♥♥
19. A song for xx - 浜崎あゆみ ♥♥
20. (miss)understood - 浜崎あゆみ
21. Glua - NOLOGO
22. CAROLS - 浜崎あゆみ
23. JEWEL - 浜崎あゆみ ♥
24. Lightening - STRAIGHTENER ♥
25. キセキ - GReeeeN
26. Dearest - 浜崎あゆみ
27. さよなら - Gackt ♥♥
28. いつかのmerry christmas - B'z ♥♥
29. Spider - Capsule
30. And I Love You - Mr. Children
31. 百年の恋 - 堂本剛/KinKi Kids
32. In My Dreams - Dream
33. Love and I - Tamia ♥♥
34. Love - Musiq Soulchild ♥
35. Lying From You - Linkin Park
36. Boulevard of Broken Dreams - Green Day ♥♥♥
37. The Little Things - Colbie Callait
38. Trouble Sleeping - Corrine Bailey Rae
39. Somebody to Love - Queen
40. Sleeping Sickness - City and Colour
41. Violet Hill - Coldplay ♥
42. The Scientist - Coldplay
43. Bulletproof - La roux
44. Gone Away - Lucy Swartz
45. Day n' Night - Kid Cudi
46. Help Me Help Me... - 244 ENDLI-x ♥
47. 春涙 - 244 ENDLI-x ♥
48. Sakura Drops - 宇多田ヒカル ♥♥
49. Passion - 宇多田ヒカル
50. Tokyo Nights - 宇多田ヒカル ♥
51. Play Ball - 宇多田ヒカル
52. Final Distance - 宇多田ヒカル
53. Simple and Clean - 宇多田ヒカル
54. Rainbow - 浜崎あゆみ
55. 大好きだよ - 大塚愛 ♥
56. Space Halo - Olivia
57. できない - Olivia ♥♥
58. Crystalline - Olivia
59. Fly Me to The Moon - 宇多田ヒカル
60. 君を探してた - Chemistry ♥
61. Boyfriend II - Crystal Kay
62. M - 浜崎あゆみ
63. Should I love him? - 安室奈美恵
64. luv(sic) pt. 1 - Shing02
65. Alone in our Castle - Olivia ♥
66. Harmony of December - Kinki Kids
67. Alone - B'z ♥
68.月光 - B'z
69. 心のブッラインド - 堂本剛
70. 願い - B'z ♥
71. Time - B'z ♥
72. Cupid - Olivia ♥
73. Dreaming with a Broken Heart - John Mayer
74. Ordinary People - John Legend
75. Prodigal - OneRepublic
76. Apologize - OneRepublic
77. Apathy - OneRepublic
78. Come Home - OneRepublic
79. Stop and Stare - OneRepublic
80. All I need (Just Say) - OneRepublic
81. Digital Love - Daft Punk
82. Do You Want me? - Hilary Duff
83. James Dean - Hilary Duff
84. Weird - Hilary Duff
85. Cry - Hilary Duff
86. It's so Hard to say goodbye to Yesterday - Boyz II Men ♥
87. About You - 浜崎あゆみ
88. Take Me Away - Avril Lavigne
89. Together - Avril Lavigne
90. My Happy Ending - Avril Lavigne
91. Nobody's Home - Avril Lavigne ♥
92. Forgotten - Avril Lavigne
93. Numb - Linkin Park
94. About Me - Utada ♥
95. Kremlin Dusk - Utada
96. 虹色Bus - 宇多田ヒカル
97. One Night Magic - 宇多田ヒカル
98. Keep Tryin' - 宇多田ヒカル
99. I am - Hilary Duff ♥♥♥
100. - Drops of Jupiter - Train
101. My Name's Women - 浜崎あゆみ
102. Hide Away - Hilary Duff
103. Pretty Wings - Maxwell ♥
104. 星の砂 - Gackt ♥
105. Pink Spider - Hide
ナーニチャンです. みんな元気かい？
Looks like nani-chan is back with another entry somehow! I don't know how I find the time to do all of these things. I guess I just amaze even myself. ^_~
Anyhoo, after many hours of contemplation and very serious thinking, I've compiled a list of 105 songs of which have lyrics that touch me somehow. Either I can relate to them or have related to them, or they just describe situations I've been through.
One thing I love so much about music is how it touches you in places where it seems as if nothing else can touch you. The majority of these songs have given me chills, left me emotional and maybe even with tears in my eyes after thinking about the lyrics deeply.
So right now, I'm going to post the entire list up here of all 105 songs, and whenever I have a chance I'll post up the lyrics of each song in an entry until I've gone through all 105.
Not only will I post up the lyrics, but also information about the artist, a picture of the artist and links as to where you can listen to the song and/or watch the video. Also, if the song happens to be in another language other than english, I will happily post up the lyrics in it's original language as well as an english translation as well, so that everyone will be able to understand. I'm calling it "THE '105 SONGS WITH LYRICS THAT I ♥!!!! XD' PROJECT OF '09." Simple enough title, I guess! xD
Why am I doing this, you ask? Some people listen to music only because of the melody, but with me being a writer I see so much beauty in the lyrics and composition of a song. It's something that I want to share with others, because then maybe they can see the beauty in it too. ^_^
So here goes, 105 songs with lyrics that I ♥, in no particular order. These songs have been chosen based solely on the lyrics, however I adore the music and the artists singing them as well. (If there is more than one heart symbol by the title, that means I REALLY love the song lyrics. =])
1. GIRASOLE - 堂本剛
2. 濡れ鼠 - ENDLICHERI☆ENDLICHERI ♥
3. Man ~あなたの宇宙に生きていたい~ - ENDLICHERI☆ENDLICHERI ♥♥
4. 心の恋人 - 堂本剛 ♥♥
5. 闇食いwind - ENDLICHERI☆ENDLICHERI
6. 孤独な詩 素敵な詩 - 剛 紫
7. 雨愛詩 - 剛 紫
8. Woman ~あなたの宇宙に生きていたい~ - ENDLICHERI☆ENDLICHERI ♥♥
9. 空が泣くから - ENDLICHERI☆ENDLICHERI ♥♥♥
10. Prisoner of Love - 宇多田ヒカル
11. Breath - 堂本剛 ♥
12. Ordinary - Lena Park
13. Orange - 堂本剛
14. 停電の夜には - KinKi Kids ♥
15. Together When... - 浜崎あゆみ
16. Because of You - 浜崎あゆみ ♥♥
17. Teddy Bear - 浜崎あゆみ ♥
18. Memorial Address - 浜崎あゆみ ♥♥
19. A song for xx - 浜崎あゆみ ♥♥
20. (miss)understood - 浜崎あゆみ
21. Glua - NOLOGO
22. CAROLS - 浜崎あゆみ
23. JEWEL - 浜崎あゆみ ♥
24. Lightening - STRAIGHTENER ♥
25. キセキ - GReeeeN
26. Dearest - 浜崎あゆみ
27. さよなら - Gackt ♥♥
28. いつかのmerry christmas - B'z ♥♥
29. Spider - Capsule
30. And I Love You - Mr. Children
31. 百年の恋 - 堂本剛/KinKi Kids
32. In My Dreams - Dream
33. Love and I - Tamia ♥♥
34. Love - Musiq Soulchild ♥
35. Lying From You - Linkin Park
36. Boulevard of Broken Dreams - Green Day ♥♥♥
37. The Little Things - Colbie Callait
38. Trouble Sleeping - Corrine Bailey Rae
39. Somebody to Love - Queen
40. Sleeping Sickness - City and Colour
41. Violet Hill - Coldplay ♥
42. The Scientist - Coldplay
43. Bulletproof - La roux
44. Gone Away - Lucy Swartz
45. Day n' Night - Kid Cudi
46. Help Me Help Me... - 244 ENDLI-x ♥
47. 春涙 - 244 ENDLI-x ♥
48. Sakura Drops - 宇多田ヒカル ♥♥
49. Passion - 宇多田ヒカル
50. Tokyo Nights - 宇多田ヒカル ♥
51. Play Ball - 宇多田ヒカル
52. Final Distance - 宇多田ヒカル
53. Simple and Clean - 宇多田ヒカル
54. Rainbow - 浜崎あゆみ
55. 大好きだよ - 大塚愛 ♥
56. Space Halo - Olivia
57. できない - Olivia ♥♥
58. Crystalline - Olivia
59. Fly Me to The Moon - 宇多田ヒカル
60. 君を探してた - Chemistry ♥
61. Boyfriend II - Crystal Kay
62. M - 浜崎あゆみ
63. Should I love him? - 安室奈美恵
64. luv(sic) pt. 1 - Shing02
65. Alone in our Castle - Olivia ♥
66. Harmony of December - Kinki Kids
67. Alone - B'z ♥
68.月光 - B'z
69. 心のブッラインド - 堂本剛
70. 願い - B'z ♥
71. Time - B'z ♥
72. Cupid - Olivia ♥
73. Dreaming with a Broken Heart - John Mayer
74. Ordinary People - John Legend
75. Prodigal - OneRepublic
76. Apologize - OneRepublic
77. Apathy - OneRepublic
78. Come Home - OneRepublic
79. Stop and Stare - OneRepublic
80. All I need (Just Say) - OneRepublic
81. Digital Love - Daft Punk
82. Do You Want me? - Hilary Duff
83. James Dean - Hilary Duff
84. Weird - Hilary Duff
85. Cry - Hilary Duff
86. It's so Hard to say goodbye to Yesterday - Boyz II Men ♥
87. About You - 浜崎あゆみ
88. Take Me Away - Avril Lavigne
89. Together - Avril Lavigne
90. My Happy Ending - Avril Lavigne
91. Nobody's Home - Avril Lavigne ♥
92. Forgotten - Avril Lavigne
93. Numb - Linkin Park
94. About Me - Utada ♥
95. Kremlin Dusk - Utada
96. 虹色Bus - 宇多田ヒカル
97. One Night Magic - 宇多田ヒカル
98. Keep Tryin' - 宇多田ヒカル
99. I am - Hilary Duff ♥♥♥
100. - Drops of Jupiter - Train
101. My Name's Women - 浜崎あゆみ
102. Hide Away - Hilary Duff
103. Pretty Wings - Maxwell ♥
104. 星の砂 - Gackt ♥
105. Pink Spider - Hide
Current Location: In neva neva land...
Current Mood: 
annoyed
annoyedCurrent Music: "Running Away" by Space Cowboy
04 August 2009 @ 03:36 pm
...just letting people know for now that a few of my journal entries are going on private for a while, until I clear a few things up with someone.
Let it be clear that they AREN'T going on private because I no longer agree with what I've written.
Everything I've written in this blog I agree with, of course, or I wouldn't have written it.
But there is some unncessary things as well as misunderstandings going on here in cyberspace that I'd like to clear up before putting the entries back on public again.
I'm off to work now, so hopefully within this week I can clear all of this up.
Thanks!
-Nanichan
Current Location: wandering...
Current Mood: 
confused
confusedCurrent Music: "The Death of Me" by City and Colour
22 July 2009 @ 12:51 am
Why not add some new bg music as we browse through my lovely literary world of rainbows? =]
This is "Dani California" by The Red Hot Chili Peppers respectively. I adore this song and the band as well. <3
</div>This is "Dani California" by The Red Hot Chili Peppers respectively. I adore this song and the band as well. <3
Dani California - Red Hot Chili Peppers</div>
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Current Location: in LURVE with straightener <3
Current Mood: 
bouncy
bouncyCurrent Music: "The Novemberist" by Straightener
02 July 2009 @ 12:04 pm
...cuz if you do, I'll say WORK and YAPLOG!! lol
Omg I've been so busy lately that it's been obnoxious. But I've got a little time on my hands now, so I just thought I'd update (correction: RANT) here for a change. >=]
Honestly, people have REALLY been annoying me and getting under my skin lately. Between the stupid ghetto customers who come into my work all the time, Asian men and people online, I've just become sick of them and reverted back to my misanthrope ways again.
The people who come into my work sometimes act as if they have no home training.
Asian men of course are always smoking some dumb @#$%.
And just recently, I've been getting a ton of crap from random people online.
It started earlier this week, with a dude from mixi (Japan) named Yuji.
He messages me on MSN for the first time since I added him in about 6 months and asks if I want to share pictures.
Before I can even answer he sends me 4 of his (of which were really cute ones too, might I add...but NO! He's a bad boy!! *pinches self*)
So anyhoo, I complement them and he asks to see some of mine. I show him one or 2 and he asks for more, some with me wearing lingerie and doing a "sexy" pose......>__<
Let's just say that after I heard that, I swear I told him off so fast in Japanese it would've made your friggin head spin!
I don't understand what's up with all these Japanese men from Japan who think American woman are nymphos.
Um......*coughs* newsflashbutamericaisn't
Exactly. So that was incident number one.
Incident number two was with my ex-bofriend, Su, which I guess really isn't an incident when you think about it.
I went by his myspace and notice he still has a picture of us up on his page, which I'm puzzled by considering the way we ended.
I don't know, I guess I just can't understand why he would act like he can't stand me, but then puts my pic up on his page? Weird.
Those were the major ones I guess, but I feel like I haven't been clear with people lately online, and I really need to get this last bit off my chest.
Too many friggin people I talk to online take the internet WAY too serious. They get soooo upset if they don't get comments or messages or wanna delete people because "omg they never talk to me!!" Who the @#$% cares?!?!? It's the internet! I can't understand how and why some people are so sensitive enough to let these things bother them. I've been dealing with crap like this online for years and now I'm really starting to get sick and tired of it. Hence maybe why I rarely get on anything anymore.
And I guess I need to go ahead and throw this out there too. I do not consider ONE person online that I talk to to be a friend, including some people that I've talked to online for years. There is only one person who even comes close to being an online friend, and that's Ariel, so if I consider anyone online to be a friend it would be her. Besides her, there is not one person that I consider a friend, I'm sorry. After Su and I dissolved, I made a promise to myself to not trust those online as easily as I did with him, because he proved to me that you can talk to someone for over a year and still be strangers.
And so to conclude, if you are someone I speak to online from time to time, please don't come to me with any of the bullcrap mentioned above. I am 19 years old, and I have a life. I work nearly full-time hours at my job, and will be starting school soon. I have my family and friends offline to associate with. I have my career and goals I am trying to pursue. I have myself that I am trying to improve. I have a LIFE, and what I don't have is time to waste on those who take things like not leaving a comment on myspace personally.
Before I started working I had already spent an entire depressing and lonely year sitting in front of a computer at home all day, basically doing nothing. Now that I work, I don't always wanna spend my off day in front of a computer screen on msn/yahoo chatting with someone who doesn't consider me to be any more of a friend to them than they are to me. Some people know I haven't been on MSN in months, mainly because Su was the only person I would really talk to there and after we broke up and I got a job, I didn't have the time or a reason to sign on anymore.
I'm a busy person, and even though I consider my online associates to be just associates, I still care about them. Just because I visit a profile and don't comment doesn't mean I don't care, I comment when I feel like commenting and on what I feel like commenting on. When it comes to videos and blog posts, I comment only on what I agree with and/or can relate to, so if I don't comment it means I probably can't relate to it....so what's the point of commenting? There's no law that says I have to agree with everything someone says because they're your friend, and plus as I said before these people are not my friends. It's nothing that should be taken personally, especially since I could care less if anyone comments my stuff or myspace. o_O
So now before any of you reading this try to delete me, make sure you know the truth first, and if you want to delete me for having a life and my own way of doing things then fine, go ahead. I don't take things online personally like that, because it's just extra stress and worries added to a life filled with enough of both.
Aaaaaand now that THAT'S out of the way! It's time to get funkasy ~☆__☆~:
^^That's Tsuyoshi's latest live concert DVD, called "Endlicheri Live" respectfully. =] I bought this off yesasia.com for $40 (FREE SHIPPING!!! XDD *prances around happily) and am happy to say that none of it went to waste. I received it in the mail earlier this week and I watched the entire first CD last night, and I am happy to say that like FWD, this one was amazing too. I love love LOVE this dvd, srsly. I was up late all last night watching it, so I'll probably watch the second one (with waterrize and the documentary! xD) later tonight after work.Tsuyoshi never ceases to amaze me!! <3<3<3<3<3<3
I really recommend that everyone give this DVD a try, even those who don't know who Tsuyoshi is or who don't know about his music, because you definately won't regret it. I know I didn't! ENDLICHERI was so legendary, I'm sure gonna miss this style of his. *becomes sad and emo*
And just to convince people to buy this DVD even more (lol) here's a clip from it that I found on youtube. This is him singing "White Dragon" which is also all throughtout this DVD. Enjoy!! MAN, I love this song. *sings* I'm your funnnky white dragon~~~~xD:
Omg I've been so busy lately that it's been obnoxious. But I've got a little time on my hands now, so I just thought I'd update (correction: RANT) here for a change. >=]
Honestly, people have REALLY been annoying me and getting under my skin lately. Between the stupid ghetto customers who come into my work all the time, Asian men and people online, I've just become sick of them and reverted back to my misanthrope ways again.
The people who come into my work sometimes act as if they have no home training.
Asian men of course are always smoking some dumb @#$%.
And just recently, I've been getting a ton of crap from random people online.
It started earlier this week, with a dude from mixi (Japan) named Yuji.
He messages me on MSN for the first time since I added him in about 6 months and asks if I want to share pictures.
Before I can even answer he sends me 4 of his (of which were really cute ones too, might I add...but NO! He's a bad boy!! *pinches self*)
So anyhoo, I complement them and he asks to see some of mine. I show him one or 2 and he asks for more, some with me wearing lingerie and doing a "sexy" pose......>__<
Let's just say that after I heard that, I swear I told him off so fast in Japanese it would've made your friggin head spin!
I don't understand what's up with all these Japanese men from Japan who think American woman are nymphos.
Um......*coughs* newsflashbutamericaisn't
Exactly. So that was incident number one.
Incident number two was with my ex-bofriend, Su, which I guess really isn't an incident when you think about it.
I went by his myspace and notice he still has a picture of us up on his page, which I'm puzzled by considering the way we ended.
I don't know, I guess I just can't understand why he would act like he can't stand me, but then puts my pic up on his page? Weird.
Those were the major ones I guess, but I feel like I haven't been clear with people lately online, and I really need to get this last bit off my chest.
Too many friggin people I talk to online take the internet WAY too serious. They get soooo upset if they don't get comments or messages or wanna delete people because "omg they never talk to me!!" Who the @#$% cares?!?!? It's the internet! I can't understand how and why some people are so sensitive enough to let these things bother them. I've been dealing with crap like this online for years and now I'm really starting to get sick and tired of it. Hence maybe why I rarely get on anything anymore.
And I guess I need to go ahead and throw this out there too. I do not consider ONE person online that I talk to to be a friend, including some people that I've talked to online for years. There is only one person who even comes close to being an online friend, and that's Ariel, so if I consider anyone online to be a friend it would be her. Besides her, there is not one person that I consider a friend, I'm sorry. After Su and I dissolved, I made a promise to myself to not trust those online as easily as I did with him, because he proved to me that you can talk to someone for over a year and still be strangers.
And so to conclude, if you are someone I speak to online from time to time, please don't come to me with any of the bullcrap mentioned above. I am 19 years old, and I have a life. I work nearly full-time hours at my job, and will be starting school soon. I have my family and friends offline to associate with. I have my career and goals I am trying to pursue. I have myself that I am trying to improve. I have a LIFE, and what I don't have is time to waste on those who take things like not leaving a comment on myspace personally.
Before I started working I had already spent an entire depressing and lonely year sitting in front of a computer at home all day, basically doing nothing. Now that I work, I don't always wanna spend my off day in front of a computer screen on msn/yahoo chatting with someone who doesn't consider me to be any more of a friend to them than they are to me. Some people know I haven't been on MSN in months, mainly because Su was the only person I would really talk to there and after we broke up and I got a job, I didn't have the time or a reason to sign on anymore.
I'm a busy person, and even though I consider my online associates to be just associates, I still care about them. Just because I visit a profile and don't comment doesn't mean I don't care, I comment when I feel like commenting and on what I feel like commenting on. When it comes to videos and blog posts, I comment only on what I agree with and/or can relate to, so if I don't comment it means I probably can't relate to it....so what's the point of commenting? There's no law that says I have to agree with everything someone says because they're your friend, and plus as I said before these people are not my friends. It's nothing that should be taken personally, especially since I could care less if anyone comments my stuff or myspace. o_O
So now before any of you reading this try to delete me, make sure you know the truth first, and if you want to delete me for having a life and my own way of doing things then fine, go ahead. I don't take things online personally like that, because it's just extra stress and worries added to a life filled with enough of both.
Aaaaaand now that THAT'S out of the way! It's time to get funkasy ~☆__☆~:
^^That's Tsuyoshi's latest live concert DVD, called "Endlicheri Live" respectfully. =] I bought this off yesasia.com for $40 (FREE SHIPPING!!! XDD *prances around happily) and am happy to say that none of it went to waste. I received it in the mail earlier this week and I watched the entire first CD last night, and I am happy to say that like FWD, this one was amazing too. I love love LOVE this dvd, srsly. I was up late all last night watching it, so I'll probably watch the second one (with waterrize and the documentary! xD) later tonight after work.Tsuyoshi never ceases to amaze me!! <3<3<3<3<3<3
I really recommend that everyone give this DVD a try, even those who don't know who Tsuyoshi is or who don't know about his music, because you definately won't regret it. I know I didn't! ENDLICHERI was so legendary, I'm sure gonna miss this style of his. *becomes sad and emo*
And just to convince people to buy this DVD even more (lol) here's a clip from it that I found on youtube. This is him singing "White Dragon" which is also all throughtout this DVD. Enjoy!! MAN, I love this song. *sings* I'm your funnnky white dragon~~~~xD:
Current Location: Softly in a black hole...
Current Mood: 
contemplative
contemplativeCurrent Music: "Telephone" by MEG